SaYa MeNcArI SeMaNgAt

salam 'alaik =)
gud morning!!!morning lg ke?
erk...still morning la...kn bru kul 11.30 pg nih...hehehe
waaa....btl2 dh lma xidupkan blog nih...
sbnrnya byk y nk sharing2 kt cni..
yela,sharing is caring kn?ngeee~
tp disebabkan kesuntukan masa n ke'bz'an y melanda n lbh2 lg keMALASan y telah lama wujud menyebabkan blog nih dibiarkan sepi...
okla 2...sesepi tuannya...eh,sesepi cik blog nih...huhu

wokeh,skrg dh msuk thn bru...
thn bru hijrah n thn bru masehi..xterlmbt lg kn?ngeee~
sy pn dh msuk sem bru skrg nih..
alhamdulillah masih berpeluang bernafas utk bertahan smpai sem 4 nih...huhu
xpa2...tggl 6sem ja lg (ayat tuk sedapkn ati sndri...hahaha)
sem y agk mncabar..bkn agk lg dh..btl2 mncabar dh nih!
jd,sbg sorg pelajar,sy kna la sahut cbran 2 kn?
yeahh!!!akan ku sahut cabaran uni kesygnku ini!=)
mudah2an Allah permudahkan jln ku nih utk menuntut ilmu...
insya-Allah...amin....

sy tau t/jwb suma org...msg2 berat...
perlukan smgt y kental,jiwa n mental y kuat tp stp keadaan xsma...
tp suma org xkn phm selagi xberada kt tmpt 2..kn2?
sy xperlukan apa2...
xperlu utk anda berada d tmpt sy...
xperlu utk anda menggantikan tmpt sy...
xperlu jgk utk anda memahami keadaan sy...
sy xkisah...
cuma sy harapkn 1 sj dr anda...
sy memerlukan sokongan anda utk terus mmberi smgt kpd sy...
itu sj y btl2 sy perlukan dr anda...
tp kalau anda merasakan sukar n terbeban utk melakukan itu,
sy tidak memaksa...sudah cukup anda tidak mmberi sokongan,sy xmahu tmbahkan kebencian plak kt ati anda...
biarlah sy sndri...sy akn mncari kekuatan sy sndri...
sy perlu bangkit!bkn utk org lain tp utk diri sy sndri...
yakin boleh!!!!

FrUsTrAtEd~

salam readers!
it looks like i have not updated diz blog for a long time...huhu
nevermind...ngeee
erm today is the 1st day of ramadhan =)
so far everything is ok...xda lapo2...hahaha
i supposed 2 b happy today b'coz we're in ramadhan rite? but i don't know y, i felt frustrated....disappointed...rite after presentation of ILoP...haisy....
actually i've 3 presentations today...but...ntahla...huhu
start from the beginning until the last class,all d presentations which presented by me was totally K.O!!!!
it supposed 2 b better coz i was in year 2 already but it seems like it was getting worst...adehhh....what a shame on me can't present well in class....
and i admit that it was 1 of my weakness....

when i think back, i feel like i wanna change my course....huhu
diz is not i want actually....
the course that i took was far away from what i want....
i don't think that i can cope with all those subjects...
but what can i do now is, i just can try my best
malaysia boleh!!!!yeahh!!!


i went to kuis last saturday for my best girlfriend's convo,
and i met my SUK & SUI lecturer-the same person actually...huhu
u know what,i feel like i want go back to kuis!!!
i wanna further my study there...huhuhu
but there's 1 problem that i can't further my stdy there....sadisnya...huhu
i miss my old days there....='(
and i'm really sure that i can get what i want there.....

*"kn best kalau kita dpt pa y kita nk n leh pilih sumanya ikut suka ati kita...tp adakalanya kita kna korbankan jgk pa y kita syg...."

there's 4 years more 2 go,chaiyok2!!!
insya-Allah i can do it.
wish me luck ya!!^_^

~D.o.W.n~

setelah sepurnama lamanya,
aku biarkn lamanku ini sepi,
jauh dari manusia sekelilingku...
erk...apakah ini??huhu

malam y hening, dingin, tenang n nyaman...
tp npa atiku xsetenang, senyaman mlm nih?
rsa cm down sgt2...dunno y...
spatutnya lbh b'smgt, b'ubah utk mnjdik y lbh baik
yela, dh p kem mengangkasa diri kn smlm
motivator plak bkn calang2 org
Dato' Dr. Hj. Mohd Fadzilah b. Kamsah
sgt best, btl2 memotivasikn diriku y ssh utk dimotivasikn...huhu
tp ntahla...someone plz help me...
need someone 2 b here beside me rite now...

tarik nafas pjg2...hembus...tarik...hembus...
erm tetap xok jgk..huhu
agk sukar jika memendam perasaan
bertambah parah jika dibiarkan terlalu lama
terasa perit jika masih ada yang tidak mengerti
namun, semuanya xakan dpt diselesaikan sekiranya kita masih mendiamkn diri...
berterus-terang...jujur...
hny 2 penyelesaiannya...mgkin y terbaik

"qulil haq wa lau ka na murran"

~berkata benarlah sekalipun ia pahit~

tp, aku bkn jenis y cm2...
dr dulu aku ajar ati aku
biarlah aku y memendam rasa asalkn org d sekelilingku bhgia
tp apa gunanya kebahagiaan org lain klau ati aku terluka?
xkira la kwn baik cmna pn
kdg2 terasa la jgk ati nih
tp bila pkir blik...atas dasar "kawan"
memndangkan kwn2 sndri...aku diamkn ja...
w/pn sbnrnya aku da hak utk bersuara
tp msg2 dh besar...spatutnya dh tau mn y baik mn y buruk...
kang kalau slh ckp, b'msm muka lak...2 y plg xbest tuh..
tp klau xckp..mkin mnjadik2 lak...
serba salah aku dibuatnya...
"K.E.S.E.D.A.R.A.N"
selagi xda kesedaran y mggunung tggi,
rsanya selagi tu lah sumanya xkn selesai...kn2?

so, apa y ptut aku buat?

"Ya Allah, tabahkan la hati hamba-Mu y kerdil ini...
berikan aku kekuatan dan semangat utk meneruskan hidup ini..."

SeLaMaT HaRi RaYa AiDiLaDhA...wEeE~

nite...huhu
blm pa2 lg dh nite...ngeh3
erm tgh xtau nk bt pa...
tgh menanti n menunggu...huhu
nk b'tolak kul 4 pg japg...waa...tgh2 pg 2...huhu
kna pksa tdo awl...tp xleh nk tdo lg la...huhu...
2la...ska sgt jdk burung hntu...=p
erm xpala,mudah2an slmt smpai kedah la nnt...amin...=)

d samping 2, diriku nk ucapkn...
"SeLaMaT HaRi RaYa AiDiLaDhA"
jgn men mrcun ya bg kaki2, tgn2 men mrcun 2...
amaran b'bhya...mmbhyakan kshtan...weee~

sMgGu d kL

salam...
slmt mlm...huhu
erm dh dkt smggu jgk la aku lepak2 kt kl...
sblm blik kedah...
ri2 kt umh k.ngah...skrg kt umh k.long lak...huhu
nyaman jgk la lepak2 dlu...
bkn slalu leh mkn angn kn..?ngeh3
tp lwk gak la dok ngan ank2 nih...ilang tnsen stdy n exam ri2...huhu
kt umh k.ngah ri2...sj la mls nk dok umh,kuar la merayau2...
k.ngah n abg ngah lak keja...
nk dijadikkan cita...mlm sblm 2...k.ngah bg knci umh...
klau2 diriku nk kuar mryau..(cm tau2 ja diriku mmg nk kuar)=p
so, b'jln2 la diriku ri2...best..sgt best...weee~
tp blik agk lmbt...huhu...
y bestnya,k.ngah cita...cik abg nih-syahmi merangkap ank buah lelaki tunggal...
dia blik dr umh ngasuh,bkak blik tgk2 aku xda...
"cik sue kt toilet kot..."
tp...xda jgk...truskan pncarian...
"cik sue smbunyi2 kot..."
n akhirnya...nangis hero sorg 2...sbb cik sue dia xda...
tkut cik sue dia kna "curi" ngan org...huahuahua =p
2 kesah kt umh k.ngah..huhu

k, kesah kt umh k.long lak...
ngan 3 org ank2 dara...huhu-power puff girls =p
diorg dh start cuti skolah, so xnk p taska...
nk dok umh memndgkn aku pn da kt umh...xpala...ok ja..
n adik pn kt umh jgk(adik nih y plg kcik la-3thn)
so, xpala...tgh cbuk2 nk bt susu kt adik, along jerit lak dr luar...
kaki t'pijak bilah lidi y cucuk2 rojak 2...
y hjg tajam 2...adeh...gabra la jgk aku...trus amik hp...
(y dh mmg sdia ada dlm poket suar..huahuahua)
apalg, tepon k.long la...kelam kabut k.long n abg long blik...huhu
mcm2...huhu...klau diorg gduh, bising2...xdgr ckp...
aku men ugut ja..."nk kna hntr p taska ke??"
kang suma diam...ngeh3...sbbnya diorg suma xmo p taska...
tp jap ja...kang men blik...y sakit kaki pn dh mcm xskt kaki...huhu

2la nmanya bdk2 kn...mcm2 ragam n mcm2 kerenah... ^_^